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| Monday, August 7th, 2006 | | 7:15 am |
originally posted 2 hours ago but taken down and now it is back
I have been awakened during the night the past four nights in a row by nightmares. These nightmares all revolve around the same issues (Rejection, abandonment, being cheated on/replaced, trust issues...those of you who have known me for a long time or who know much about my experiences of leaving school for a while and the other troubles I had after and during my 3rd year at BC probably know that it took me about a year and a half to really move on after being dumped and all the other crap). I feel much as I did during the months of Spring term 2001 and also the year I lived at home. All the hope is gone...and I am scared pretty much all of the time. I want to be in a place I can feel safe...and my parents are in 'Noke which is not really all that far away, I just don't have the time to really spend much time with them right now. I am in a pretty large financial bind at the moment... I haven't had regular nightmares since right after the sexual assault and betrayals of early 2001. Well, I guess those nightmares did continue for a while. My therapist in 'Noke was very helpful. Hopefully my new therapist will be able to help me process my pain that is causing me all of these other issues. I feel that enough of my life is slipping away from me and I am powerless to stop it. It is very unfortunate that my dreams have now been invaded by all of these negative thoughts. I am not really able to relax...Roope says that some body work would probably help me...Meg has been getting body work from him fairly regularly, I don't really know if it has been helping her or not, but I know she has enjoyed the rub downs... I just am so scared now. The place that I feel the safest now is probably at work. My boss and the owners have been very supportive of me recently. If it were not for my new job, I would be ready to pack it up and head to my parents' house and live by their rules (being home by 10, no drinking and all that) because I am not getting the support that I need right now from family and old friends either because they do not know what is going on or because of distance and busyness, mostly both (in some cases people are just having a hard enough time with life themselves that they can't really be supportive/helpful to me). I don't belong here in Cville, but staying in Mass until the house sells would just drive me crazy too. I am such a wreck. I have been awake for over a half-hour now, and typing all of this calmed me except I just woke Meg up so I am going to try and go to sleep now... House, please sell so there is one less thing weighing down on me... seriously though I am bothering Meg....another time internet world... Current Mood:  distressedCurrent Music: just the thoughts in my head and fans in the room | | Tuesday, August 1st, 2006 | | 8:53 am |
my favorite Quotes of Jeremy Taylor...still not a real update
Whatsoever we beg of God, let us also work for it. Know that you are your greatest enemy, but also your greatest friend. If anger proceeds from a great cause, it turns to fury; if from a small cause, it is peevishness; and so is always either terrible or ridiculous. Love is friendship set on fire. To be proud of learning is the greatest ignorance. It is impossible to make people understand their ignorance, for it requires knowledge to perceive it; and, therefore, he that can perceive it hath it not. A religion without mystery must be a religion without God. The best theology is rather a divine life than a divine knowledge. Conscience in most men, is but the anticipation of the opinions of others. Habits are the daughters of action, but then they nurse their mother, and produce daughters after her image, but far more beautiful and prosperous. Whatsoever we beg of God, let us also work for it. | | Friday, July 14th, 2006 | | 12:09 pm |
I am turning 26 tomorrow
I made a meez...  I have never really been very big on updating my livejournal. A lot has been going on in my life recently so I have been even less likely to update. I am trying to get the house on the market, which has been wearing on me tremendously the past several months. The house has to sell for us to be able to afford our condo...which should be ready in December some time. I live and work in Cville now. I love my new job (even as a busboy), hopefully I will be waiting tables within a few months. Zocalo is a nice establishment, and the owners are the head chefs. You can catch me there most nights...and particularly on Friday nights as I am usually the door man between 11pm and 2am, while we are just serving drinks. I also still work for Ruby Tuesday, but in Cville now and just during the lunch shift on Tuesdays as the host. Monday nights I am at a class for learning to play Bridge. So I usually only have one night a week where I am not working. That seems to lean towards Tuesday or Wednesday on most weeks but that may be changing since I am going to be an expediter/foodrunner more now and a busboy less. As many of you know this move has been extremely stressful on Meg and myself. It sucks because she works days and I work nights. It makes it hard for us to get some of the things done that we need to. Falcon Ridge will be a much needed vacation. I will miss all of my friends who will not be at Falcon Ridge this year but we will all have to try and make the best of it. I plan to spend some time at the dance tent this year. As usual though, I think I will spend more time in the campsite than in vendor city. I need the chance to veg out. I will probably be spending more time with Meg this year than in years previous because of how little I get to see her recently. Well this has certainly been a stream of consciousness. Happy thoughts to all my friends out there... Jeremy | | Monday, December 26th, 2005 | | 5:35 pm |
sick
So I'm sick now...splitting or bashing headache(I am not sure which), sore throat, congestion, cough, etc... Whatever was going around finally caught up with me... At least I worked 55 hours last week and have enough sick time that if I still feel horrible tomorrow I can call in...I think I could handle switchboard tomorrow for 6 hours though...I will just be drugged... | | Friday, December 9th, 2005 | | 5:59 pm |
Friiiiiiday fiiiiive from natertots 1. What's on your feet? Socks...I took the snow and shoes off a few minutes ago... 2. Turn to your right -- what do you see? vertical blinds (they are closed) 3. What is the last thing you ate? solids: a pack of M&Ms and an antihistamine tablet liquid: Glaceau vitaminwater: focus 4. What can you smell right now? The saline I sprayed up my nose to clear the stuffiness 5. Do you wear hats? Yes...I prefer visors (my wife does not) unless the purpose is to keep my head warm or dry | | Wednesday, November 23rd, 2005 | | 10:12 am |
| | Tuesday, November 1st, 2005 | | 10:33 am |
punctuation
hyphen
You scored 38% Sociability and 58% Sophistication! |
You are comfortable around others. While you don't have to go out every
night, yet you take pride in being easy to get along with. This should
not, however, be misconstrued as believing (as many do) that you are
without subtlety. In fact, you have the power to inform the anal
retentive that, indeed, they are discussing an anal-retentive issue.
Who else can do that? Quotation marks intimidate you a little bit. |  | My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: | You scored higher than 27% on Sociability | | You scored higher than 46% on Sophistication |
| | | Friday, September 30th, 2005 | | 3:22 pm |
| | Monday, September 19th, 2005 | | 2:29 pm |
| | Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 | | 8:50 am |
| #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### #################################################### | Your personality type is SCUAI | You are social, moderately calm, unstructured, accommodating, and intellectual, and may prefer a city which matches those traits.
| | The largest representation of your personality type can be found in the these U.S. cities: Providence, Austin, Denver, Salt Lake City, Charlotte, San Antonio, Albuquerque/Santa Fe, Indianapolis, Phoenix, Portland/Salem, Nashville, Louisville and these international countries/regions Turkey, Croatia, Slovenia, Caribbean, Puerto Rico, Iceland, Norway, Ukraine, Sweden, Denmark, Spain, Netherlands, Russia, Japan, India | What Places In The World Match Your Personality?City Reviews at CityCulture.org 16 | | Sunday, September 11th, 2005 | | 12:05 pm |
Here I am, Stupid American
| You Are 27% American |  America: You don't love it or want to leave it.
But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over.
On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead...
And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch! |
(Actually I do kind of want to leave it. Family members living here is what keeps me from choosing to seek citizenship elsewhere... I don't want to sucker punch Uncle Sam. I don't want violence, even play violence...I want accountability...) Who'd a thunk it...I'm barely more than a quarter American. I do try to be more of a citizen of God's Kingdom than of earthly kingdoms (I don't think God as King can really be explained away as not requiring obedience to God ABOVE obedience to earthly institutions or social customs) but mostly I just end up being Human. Very flawed and very human...but at least not too American... Peace and Long Life | | Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005 | | 9:58 am |
| | Monday, May 2nd, 2005 | | 11:59 pm |
Blessed Be
Blessings upon all who read this. It is my sincere prayer that all persons who read this will personally and specifically be blessed. Faith, Hope, and Love that transcend barriers to each and all of you... (Does anyone else who cares about the Bible find it interesting how many "Christians" emphasize Faith as all important when Corinthians clearly states that Love is superior...? Oh yeah...and the Faith, Hope, or Love of the human is never as powerful as that of the Divine. Maybe what we do can't hinder the True Telos of the Everything..) Current Mood:  touchedCurrent Music: blessed inspiration... | | Monday, April 25th, 2005 | | 9:02 pm |
tech support for self and friends
ah the pains of fixing computers I need to fix Sarah's computer which should be easy now that we have the quickrestore disk. I'll just compltetely wipe the hd (blank dos partition) with my redhat CDs and then use the restore cd... I am trying to turn my little linux box into a dual boot w/windows98se cause that is what I have installed on my old hd. I got it to boot windows but I have not been able to get windows to talk to the network or internet yet. Maybe I can fix it when I pick my 98se and restore cds from Boom Boom's apartment tomorrow. At least I was able to fix the problem Meg was experiencing. The standby button on top of our cable modem had been depressed by a pile of stuff on it (probably partially my fault that the button got pushed cause I moved my computer to work on it...probably partially not my fault as the pile of stuff was not mine). Pushing a button to take the modem off standby I can do... I should be getting Ubuntu CDs soon which means I will be reformatting the linux hd on my box soon anyway... *sighs* Current Mood: geekyCurrent Music: "whhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrrrr" by the fan blades | | Tuesday, April 19th, 2005 | | 12:12 am |
Your Linguistic Profile:
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70% General American English |
15% Dixie |
15% Yankee |
0% Midwestern |
0% Upper Midwestern | | | Saturday, April 9th, 2005 | | 7:50 am |
Your Love Style is Eros |
For you, love is all about the passion!
And chances are, you're currently in love.
You have a strong physical response to love...
And you are great at committing
(As long as the person makes your toes curl!) | | | 7:50 am |
Jeremy Wise Taylor's Aliases
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Your movie star name: Orange Cupcakes Fred
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Your fashion designer name is Jeremy Venice
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Your socialite name is Fro Sidney
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Your fly girl / guy name is J Tay
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Your detective name is Human Lord Botetourt
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Your barfly name is Lil Debbie Lil Debbie Gin And Tonic
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Your soap opera name is Wise Mapleview
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Your rock star name is Chocolate The Earth
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Your star wars name is Jerdio Taymeg
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Your punk rock band name is The Contemplative Torus
| | | 7:46 am |
sillyness but funny
Jeremy Wise Taylor's Aliases
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Your movie star name: Orange Cupcakes Fred
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Your fashion designer name is Jeremy Venice
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Your socialite name is Fro Sidney
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Your fly girl / guy name is J Tay
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Your detective name is Human Lord Botetourt
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Your barfly name is Lil Debbie Lil Debbie Gin And Tonic
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Your soap opera name is Wise Mapleview
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Your rock star name is Chocolate The Earth
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Your star wars name is Jerdio Taymeg
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Your punk rock band name is The Contemplative Torus
| Current Mood: chipper | | 7:23 am |
| You scored as Existentialism. Your life is guided by the concept of Existentialism: You choose the meaning and purpose of your life.
“Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does.”
“It is up to you to give [life] a meaning.”
--Jean-Paul Sartre
“It is man's natural sickness to believe that he possesses the Truth.”
--Blaise Pascal
More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page...
Existentialism | | 100% | Utilitarianism | | 80% | Hedonism | | 70% | Justice (Fairness) | | 65% | Kantianism | | 65% | Divine Command | | 35% | Strong Egoism | | 20% | Apathy | | 10% | Nihilism | | 0% | </td>
What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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Not too bad but of course more of my views are shaped by my religion than a lot of people would think if they just saw this...of course when your religious views include reason as valuable it all might be religious....hmmm... | | Sunday, April 3rd, 2005 | | 10:38 am |
UUA
All of the information I am going to list here would be perfectly easy for someone to look up on their own. Because Unitarian Universalists do not really look like a typical religion many people are not going to look this up on their own. Some people think that UUs have no belief or not enough in common to be helpful and relevant to each other with regards to spiritual matters. I can understand why this is confusing to many people because not all Unitarians Universalists are Unitarian or in fact Universalist in the historical sense... First I will talk about the Unitarian Universalist Association as it is today. Unitarian Universalism is technically not a Denomination. It is an Association of churches. There is less of a top down heirarchy and more of a group democracy. This would be very much unlike the structure of the Catholic Church or Methodists. All churches that join the Association "covenant to affirm and promote" certain principles and purposes. I am going to focus on the principles. Of course when you join...sign your name in the membership book...a UU Church you are covenanting to affirm and promote these concepts as well. This is as close to a creed as the UUA is willing to get. They do not require uniformity of belief especially with regards to metaphysics. (This next bit is all quoted from the UUA website. I first encountered it on the bulletin of Harrisonburg UU.) We, the member congregations of the Unitarian Universalist Association, covenant to affirm and promote * The inherent worth and dignity of every person; * Justice, equity and compassion in human relations; * Acceptance of one another and encouragement to spiritual growth in our congregations; * A free and responsible search for truth and meaning; * The right of conscience and the use of the democratic process within our congregations and in society at large; * The goal of world community with peace, liberty, and justice for all; * Respect for the interdependent web of all existence of which we are a part. (If you believe these things then you do agree with the UUs with regards to what THEY hold to be most important.) (Without one particular canon from which to enforce dogmatic belief How do UUs have any experience of the divine or truth?) The living tradition which we share draws from many sources: * Direct experience of that transcending mystery and wonder, affirmed in all cultures, which moves us to a renewal of the spirit and an openness to the forces which create and uphold life; * Words and deeds of prophetic women and men which challenge us to confront powers and structures of evil with justice, compassion, and the transforming power of love; * Wisdom from the world's religions which inspires us in our ethical and spiritual life; * Jewish and Christian teachings which call us to respond to God's love by loving our neighbors as ourselves; * Humanist teachings which counsel us to heed the guidance of reason and the results of science, and warn us against idolatries of the mind and spirit. * Spiritual teachings of earth-centered traditions which celebrate the sacred circle of life and instruct us to live in harmony with the rhythms of nature. Jeremy: If you find these ideas positive and helpful then maybe the UU Churches are for you. Different congregations have very different (worship) service styles, so one congregation may feel like home while another is unbearable due to the structure of the service. Faith, Hope, and Love Of/For/From God to Us All, Jeremy Current Mood:  sick |
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